It's not easy to claim the title of
harlot, but over the last few years I've realized that I need to.
When I look at my life I see that time and time again I have walked
away from true love. I find myself being “satisfied by the call of
lovers less wild” (Derek Webb).
I was reminded again of my tendency this semester. I was pouring out
my heart to God about all the emotions and stress that was weighing
me down. I wanted relief and answers to all that I was struggling
with. Mid-pour God gently stuck out his finger and tipped the pitcher
back up. He showed me what I was filling the bowl with and it wasn't
pretty. I was absorbed with myself and had lost sight of his will. I
was so consumed by the immediate emotions and problems that I had
stopped seeking what he wanted to do in me. It was only a month ago when I was excited about what he had in store. Thankfully he is a Father
who loves to refine us. Every time I walk away from his love he is
there to take me back again.
"I will betroth you to me forever; I will betroth you in righteousness and justice, in love and compassion. I will betroth you in faithfulness and you will acknowledge the LORD" ~ Hosea 2:19-20
