Today my little sister got engaged!
It's a day of excitement, squeals, stories, pictures, blessings and memories to last a life time. I was not prepared for the text and picture that announced her engagement as well as requesting that I be her maid of honor. It was met with excitement and joy, followed by a phone call to hear all the details and share in her excitement. As the day progressed, I was hit with multiple waves of emotion; unexpected sadness. The reality is settling in that I am now the older, unmarried sister. This realization is accompanied by lies, fear, and maybe some jealousy. My "little" sister is not too young to be getting married; she'll be 25 in about 2 months. I think that's what makes it harder, while both of us were single it was easier to accept. Both being aunties, neither of us on the road to having our own families. Now I'm alone.
This might all seem over dramatic. But as a single woman, nearing 30, attending undergrad, surrounded by kids getting engaged left and right at this "Bridal" Bible school, I can't help but feel it's a little unfair. I went up to the rooftop of my building to cry and pray. I asked God to bless their marriage and draw them closer to himself. I don't think I can sit back and watch another marriage turn mediocre. Then I begged for the grace for myself to remain faithful to his timing.
So, Jill, if you happen to read this, don't misunderstand me. I am more excited for you than I can express in words. I've been an overprotective, big sister over the years. I hated watching you get your heart broken and wanted nothing more than a wonderful, godly man for you. I knew from the beginning Zack was different, despite the criticism from some. Since you've been dating him I've seen you draw closer to the Lord and that impresses me. I pray that as you begin to prepare for your life together, your relationship is founded on Christ and that you would face whatever comes your way through his power. I love you!
