Stability. I lost it.
I consider myself a stable person.
I don't get stressed easily. I have control of my emotions. Almost
rock-like some might say. ;) So I was caught off-guard last week when
I had an emotional breakdown. Sure, I have a lot going on in my life
right now; first semester in college, living in a dorm, 12 hours from
my closest friends and family, and severe pain due to a herniated
disc. But that's no reason to lose control. That's exactly what
happened. All it took was my mother asking how I was doing. My heart
fell to the ground in a hundred pieces, and there I was, sobbing from
the pain, realizing that I'm not strong enough to carry that load.
What did I learn from it? Trust.
Surrender. Hope. Peace. Joy.
Trust that I can surrender my burdens
to the Lord. He is faithful.
Hope that he will carry me through my
current circumstances, or give me strength to endure.
Filled with peace and joy as a result.
“May the God of hope fill you with
all JOY and PEACE as you TRUST in him, so that you may overflow with
HOPE by the power of the Holy Spirit.” ~Romans 15:13
Oh, Krystle Dawn. I want to tell you a whole story of how I feel some of your pain. Even at this distance, I feel some of your pain. And that verse, how my heart has clung to it for dear life! I love you.
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